What do you want
he said
his certainty
pressed into me

I found myself
choking on the urge
to scream
Just leave
Just go please
And take
your trite half truths
masked as questions
and your pretend curiosity
with you

But then I remembered
how I used to be…
In love always
with dreams
of how things could be

So I turned
to face him
knowing he had
no real interest in me
determined still
to at the very least know
I answered honestly
for me
out of respect
for what I say
matters to me

What do I want?
I said…

I want fullness in every breath
and warmth from the inside out
I want to feel like I am flying
when I fall
and I want to know
where the ground is always

I want a love that overwhelms me
and lips that taste
like sun kissed wild berries
I want to remember
every moment that gets in
and make art that captures hearts
and has us feeling tender deeply

I want to be a mom
I want someone to call me mommy
and I want to be sincerely okay
being completely alone

I want to learn everything I can
and I want to be grateful
for the endless mysteries

I want to feel joy mostly
and share it effortlessly

I want to know
I made a difference
genuinely, wholeheartedly

I want to feel useful
and impeccably used up
when I go to forever sleep

And I want to know
at the very least
I did everything
I did fully
with all of me

Yes that
this is what I want

Thank you
for asking me

❤ Emily Joy Rosen

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Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.