it’s my birthday
so I am posting
a photo of me smiling
because that is what we do
on birthdays on social media

this is what we do

but I have never been one
to do things just because
“it’s what we do,” I am too
restless and reckless
raised by rebels (it’s always
in me to rattle the cage
I didn’t agree to)

I am posting this photo
mostly because I like it
mostly because I was feeling
really happy here
when we were taking photos
just outside my home
(I love) in Colorado
watching the sunset
laughing and joking
tearing up at the beauty
of this world
and our lives
and how
we get

I learned more
about myself
this year
than any other year
of my life

I am changed
I am humbled
I am grateful
I am proud
I am disappointed
I am heartbroken
I am tired
I am wiser

I am better
in the better ways

I felt the most
I ever felt this year

I felt hard
I loved fierce

I made undeniable friends
and one (or three) I think for is sure
a forever friend

I felt bliss
in sweet slow supple
ecstatic motion
where nothing
but the brightest love
and purest care could exist

And I burned
with self loathing
like I never have before
where there was more
than a moment
I really wished
not to be here

And I grew
and soft

I softened
I experienced (so much)
I tried something different,
I did. I was actually vulnerable
I sobbed in ways I never ever have before
I found delight in simplicity
that would have previously been torturous to me
Business was good
I started a few
though that feels less important
to share now here (later maybe)
but at least know
I love that I get to make a living
making a difference I believe in
(and the Institute and Secret Keepers
and the Writing are all doing very well)

but really, the reason
why I am sharing here now
is because

it’s my birthday

(and even though
something super hard
happened super yesterday)

I know that when I choose
to focus on the good
and remind myself
that I am committed
to making good
making good of even
the hard things

I am okay
(more than okay)

I am glad
glad mostly
for family,
people who care
and that I have this
(what I am sharing
here) what I call

❤ Emily Joy Rosen

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Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.