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And she
she welcomed me
with such tender truthful trepidation
It was like seeing (re-meeting) a lover
so many years later
the love remembered
and still present, but different
and far away, yet so real
and almost available
(if we just for a moment
let it be…)
If we just for an instant
stopped pretending…

I am coming home
I said to her (the part of me
that remembered
faintly and so faithfully)

I am coming home

And I
I remember
standing over
that glittering precipice
(where light hit
all the jagged
shattered pieces
making everything broken
beautiful)
knowing this was going to change
everything for me
everything, if I kept leaning
if I let myself go
(falling free)

Oh I want this
(I really do)
And wanting
wanting scares me
It is so much easier
to be need-free
(or at least pretend to be)
So much less room for the hurting
of not getting
what I am wanting

But that
that is a less than inspiring way
to live and most definitely not
a reflection of who I want to be
(I do not want to be
a person terrified
of (true) vulnerability
a person who
keeps her cards tight
her heart guarded
her desires silenced)

!!!

I want
this
I want
I do
I want her back
(the part that held
all the joy
I used to have in me)
I want her
to find her way
through every part of me
till I am in ecstasy regularly
till I am oozing delight effortlessly
till I am in love always

Yes that
joy
I want
that too

❤ Emily Joy Rosen

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Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.