love-liar-1

He wasn’t
who he said
he was

But in all fairness
I wasn’t either

Love
has made
a liar
out of me
more than once

I admit
(reluctantly)
I have been
more willing
to lose
me
than you
(repeatedly)

And this
is how
the breaking begins
this is how
we begin to yield
barely noticing
we are bending
slowly
surely
till so bent
out of shape
we snap

And it’s
the snapping
that hurts
the most
Because
rarely is it
a clean break
there is usually
some splintering

And the fragments
of who we
used to be
get stuck
in who we
pretended
to be

And weeks
turn into months
of slowly
steadily
extracting
slivered bits
of truth
out of the
open wounds
love
made in me

But I refuse
to stop
till even
the slightest splinter
is out of me
I take my time
persistently
cautiously
ferociously

So years later
when eyes meet
over coffee
at the cafe
he picked
I remember
how love
can make a liar
out of me

So when
I feel
that all too familiar
anxiety
the feeling I know
so excruciatingly well
the one that comes
from clear
incongruency
I know to leave
immediately

I know
to choose
something different
for me
(and for him)

Because
I know
love true
would never
have me
lying to you

And we
are always
better
than deceit
We can
always
do better
than infatuation
lit by dishonesty

If only
for the sake
of our own
dignity

If only
because
the heart
in me
honors
the heart
in you

And I want
better for us
(all of us)
I want better
for me and you
yes
yes I do

I want love
love that I know
is true

❤ Emily Joy Rosen

Share this post

Join the Converstaion!

Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.