my mama used to wake me by singing “you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray, you’ll never know dear how much i love you so please don’t take my sunshine away.” i never much liked mornings (my mom is the most morningest morning person I know). i never much enjoyed being out in the sun (always preferring to be inside drawing or painting something, my sister and father for sure being more of the sun worshippers). i did (and still do) love the idea that i made my mom happy (and that she wouldn’t want me to go away). i do like when people want me to stay (especially forever, forever is my favorite). i also quite liked the idea of being someone’s only sunshine (maybe this is where my obsession with specialness began). i have always had a yearning to be someone’s only (maybe fairy tales ruined me). music is loaded with some super intense messaging around loving and longings. i wonder if some of us are simply immune to the romanticism of dependency. i for one am not and it has been quite a mess of sweet nothings i have been attempting to untangle, because i am genuinely not sure what is true for me (me) and what is conditioning. so i am getting my hands awfully messy, feeling lost often and embarrassingly confused. but i worship sunshine now and occasionally enjoy a sunrise too, so i know we can change (in ways we thought we never would, in ways that contradict who we thought we would be). and that feels most exciting, that feels sparkly and shiny and new. like this dress, this dress is new too…

❤ Emily Joy Rosen

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Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.