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and then death came. a familiar forever friend urging me to lay my head upon the floor, so i didn’t have so far to fall as she whispered to me, “oh sweetie tomorrow is no more”. and i found myself missing someone i never really knew… | Secret Keepers by Emily Joy Rosen

and then
death came
a familiar
forever friend
urging me
to lay my head
upon the floor
so I didn’t
have so far
to fall
as she whispered
to me
“oh sweetie
tomorrow
is no more”

and I found myself
missing
someone I never
really knew
and I found myself
crying
at the sunlight
and I remember
that sometimes
endings are just that
an ending
…even though I would
like to believe
that every ending
is also an opportunity
for a bright(er) beginning
I see how my endless
romantic optimism
isn’t serving me (here)
and sometimes
we just need to
be with what
is

and I think to myself
this is how hearts splinter
in those jagged messy ways
in ways that never heal
quite the same

and I think to myself
oh what could I
have done better
(righter)?
am I being punished?
am I bad?
please tell me
what did I do
to deserve this
(why, why, why
is this happening)
…this isn’t my
meant to be
is it?
really?

oh
I, I just
I just can’t deal
I really am having
the very hardest time
dealing with
with this
this reality
(it’s so not what
I am wanting)

ah this, this
this is how we go
crazy
I think
another night
escaping without sleep
this is just how
we die
on the inside
and start being
the person
who doesn’t care
so much
anymore

and then she comes
with sticky fingers
and eyes so open
so sparkly, bright
and clear
I cannot help
but yield
to a knowing
that life
still has so much
good
love is here
and I will
heal
(we will
heal)

but first
we
grieve

yes
I must
grieve

please

yes
please
let me
feel

yes
please
just
let me
be

❤️ emily joy rosen

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