Work on self is not selfish
It’s a necessity
I confess
I used to think differently
But the universe humbled me
over and over and over again
till underwater
gasping for air
I got
there was no way
I was going to make it
if I didn’t start looking at me

But I didn’t much care for myself
Honestly, I hated myself
and so the idea of healing just for me
was beyond uninteresting
and literally had no traction in my system
I wasn’t sure I had any reason to keep going
I wasn’t sure I wanted to be here anymore

I was dancing with dying

But then someone said to me,
When you heal
you help others heal
and if you heal
you can help others heal

And I remember running
from the workshop room
into the bathroom
black tears streaming down my face
as my eyeliner
mixed with my first taste of hope
in years

I wish I knew her name
the woman who said this to me
I wish I could find her
and thank her
Because she opened the door
that gave my life back to me
She gave me a purpose
a reason to heal
and for years I have lived on
the possibility
that someday
not only would I get out
I would help other women
get out

I have been so consumed
these last 8 years
healing ruthlessly
repairing my body
reclaiming my mind
soothing my heart
feeding my soul
and building a company that required
many 80+ hour weeks

I think I forgot to realize
that I am
yes now
I am living my dream

And that is just
the very sweetest feeling
I would want for everyone

But first you heal
for you
and every woman
before you
and after

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Emily Rosen is the co-owner and CEO of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating where she oversees business development strategies, student affairs, marketing and public relations, and keeps a pulse on the fields of eating psychology and nutrition to ensure the Institute’s position as a leader worldwide. Emily makes things happen. Her passion for health and transformation has provided her the opportunity to speak and present internationally and be at the forefront of a new generation of women leaders committed to making a heartfelt difference in the world. Her tireless work and faithful commitment have touched the lives of millions of fans and followers worldwide.